Hmmm... things seemed to be looking better. Recently my old insecurities came back to hunt me. I am getting used to the idea of going to FSU and becoming a Seminole :) lol. Hopefully Nicky is understanding my anxieties, I think I drive him crazy with my mood changes. Well, I love him and hopefully he knows that. I am still a bit unsure about his plans for the future and what he wants to do in a next few years. I definately feel like I need to get a single in Florida, the roomates thing is really not working out for me. The Exchange seems like a nice place to live. I have alot to do in the next few weeks, just going to tackle one thing at a time. That's it for now... Gnight

Well, it is March 17th, tomorrow is my father's 50th birthday. I am starting to hear back from some schools, nothing exciting. Florida State seems to be my only choice right now, which is not a bad thing. Going to FL will be a big change for me. My biggest worry is leaving my mom and Nick, these are two people who mean the world to me and I am afraid to be away from them. Two schools that are the closest to NJ are Penn State and UConn. I doubt I will be going to Penn State, but UConn is still a possibility. When visiting both of these schools I was sick and I think that effect my interviews. I truly think that I need to go to Grad School, if I don't I will regret it for the rest of my life. The person I am keeping contact with from FL is being extremely patient with me and I truly appreciate her patience. Nick is in Oklahoma, and I miss him already. I have alot on my mind today, expecially I hit my emergency weight of 119 lbs. I seriously need to watch what I eat and start an excersize routine. My goal is 105lbs by May 15. I will update this blog as I start loosing weight. I don't feel fat and I have food cravings quiet often. I am cuttng out sugars and candy from my diet.

October 8th, 2005

So I am finally 21, and for the most part nothing has changed. Last two months have been very hard on me. First I ended up going for emergency tooth sergery to get my wisdom teeth out, then my credit report had mistakes on it, then I learned that the person who stole my phone ended up running up my bill to 450 dollars, I am not getting along with one of my apartment mates.

On the upside I was finally reimbursed by CNBC for my internship, things with my boyfriend Nick can't be greater. Going to a wedding with him tomorrow :).